Bila bertalu,
rentak di kalbu
hasrat yang tersirat semakin kuburu
bila bergema laungan gempita
harapan bernyala nadiku berganda~
Gemuruh Jiwa, semangat membara...
Dari puncak ingin ke angkasa
berkalungkan bintang berkelipan
menyerlah jauh dari yang biasa~~

6th May 09
Went back to my 2nd home, kolej matrikulasi johor with YW. in that memorable Cepat Ekspres. journey was great coz were excited and chatted all the way about how the orientation would be. being the 2nd intake and having no idea wat the whole thing was about, u can guess i was a bit nervous with it as well.arrived around 11.30am. after registered, checked in and settled down, started our work with arranging some documents into files for the juniors. stared around. HEP, tutorial rooms, lecture halls, the gorgeous dataran temenggung, all the 6 blocks.... ahhhh!! i'm back finally!!!!! misss euuuu soo soo muchyyy!! *smiled*nite was ice-breaking session. met some new frenz in my group. man... was i grateful to know them!! the guys are sporting and funny, esp my leader who is also our senior.(Aiman lah~) so how did we intro ourselves to the rest was we had to do a drama on fairytales. so mine was Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs. Snow White was Faerdaus (aww man.. i'll nvr forget ur charming ban-cute look when u did the Bollywood-like chasing on the beach scene XD), the bad witch was me (as usual,i dunno y i enjoy holding evil characters lolxx), the mirror was YW, 7 dwarfs were the gals (soli, cant reli rmbr ur names ==""), the hunter who was sent to kill snow white was Azim ("ok i'll release u, if u promise to perform aerobic and gelek dance for me." whakakaka), Prince charming was jeannette, and the funny durian golek was Amir (dun ask me y there are durians involved in here, thanks to the mastermind+director Aiman lolxx pengsan listening to his storyline) Amir went rolling to Snow white and going "ahh ahh pening aku!" which got us all bellies with laughter. he replaced the poisonous apple to kill Snow white. but the story got a twist by giving her diarrhea instead XD so in the end when snow white met Prince charming and getting all lovey-dovey, sudd she farted and spoilt the mood. den Prince conjured smth called........

the pill chi kit teck aun..... just for u...

ROFL LMAO LOL!!!!!and they lived happily ever after.... so the conclusion is... this is an advertisement on diarrhea!!!wat creative minds u guys have. whakakakkakaaaaa7th May-10th Maylet's just summarise it by us having lotza refreshments to learn, cheers, fun games to be played (the 'scariest' was the 1 having us to surrender rm10 each. i tot my money will never return again, seeing them being so dead serious into keeping our money if we lost. ><), in the evening would be the riadah session (poco-poco, chicken dance, j'robik. now i'm expert in those dy whahahahaaa).on 1 morning, we were told to paint the tutorial rooms. extra 08/09 shirts were distributed to us to be worn (thanks, u know i need that). it went very smoothly until i kacau my leader, Aiman. saw him walking and fooling around."aiman, curi tulang yeh.!""mana ada, org dah siap ah."sudd he ambushed me with the roller and painted my hand "dah kotor pun, tambah lagi takpe!""arrrggghhhh!"so i revenged lar, "attacked" him with more paint when he din notice. den the Star Wars battle occur, with us being Jedi and paint rollers as our swords XD soon, the whole tutorial rooms were filled with screams and yells as everyone were painting and being painted by each other. main culprit was the Naga gang (Aiman one of them)it was the best moment during training week haha ("very childish lar u guys!')
*at this time my laptop is repeating Gemuruh for dunno how many times dy*

11th May
Alas, KMJ welcomed its 1st batch of 09/10 juniors!!! my group was in charge with block F (my previous block) and i was in protocol. which is cool coz i got to interact with student and parents and answ all their q. registration day went fine, and that evening was our 1st meeting with the non-muslims students.

12th-14th may
everyday's sleep was around 2-3hrs. woke up around 5am to get ready for the exercise session with the non-muslims. gosh juniors, some of u were complaining of the harsh life just bcoz u need to get up early. hng... but luckily they were very cooperative and things were sweet and smooth. games and refreshments were conducted. applied watever we had learnt during training on them ^^moral sessions were always sharing time for all of us. we answered their thoughts and troubles during then. almost cried when answering a q on being homesick but had to stay strong as she din want her mom to worry about her.(been alwayz touchy when it comes to family issue. guess i wasn't that strong after all). time to say goodbye too coz it was the last moral session with them (14th may)

15th may
Majlis penutupan orientasi. we facilitators performing "Gemuruh". and it was a surprise performance for everyone. which i think was pretty cool coz nobody would be expecting it. ^^ rehearsed some time, touched up here and there, added some faci cheers(the significant faci fighting cheer) and off we go!!! as i was standing the front row, i could feel all of us were so spirited, danced and sang like there's no tomorrow, the burning feeling in each of us as we went "gemuruh jiwa.." and we can feel the crowd felt the same way as us too ^^ cameras flashing every corner, senior facilitators recording every single of that glory moment... ahhhh........... i do feel like a celebrity whakakakaaaa~~ we are celebrities!! as we got down the stage:ingat ingat itu rememberjangan lupa itu dun forgetfaci sayang adik, we love uhanya adik only u.....awww...took photos with some juniors, gave them last few bits of advices, some came to say thanks for everything, gave me hugs (sobz), my LDK group member called and asked me whether wanna gather to have last meeting anot( gawd, u know how much i appreciate that? coz i was trying to fight for the microphone to announce H23 to gather, but good thing u guys were so proactive!! muahxxxx! ) nite was emo. after farewell party of BBQ and secret recipe cakes, we facilitators gathered at JPP room. sang "gemuruh" again for the last time. then arms-in-arms, we sang kenangan terindah. that was when my tears came rolling down my cheeks T__T it's hard to say goodbye guys. this whole journey and u have taught me so much of things. i found my inner strength and wat i'm capable of. i boost my confidence and knew how to have fun, feel the joy when together and pain when leaving, knowledge and experience that no books can provide, gawd reli thanks to all of u. the tears is not bcoz of regret, but bcoz of the sweetest memories we planted in our hearts which will be carried with us forever, and until we meet again ^^

to my dearest LDK (H23): u guys were darlings, u know. though we've only knew each other for 1 week, and only met during LDK sessions, which is not long, i appreciate every single one of u. from ur notes, i know i've done a good job in guiding and helping u all. my facilitator job is done, but i'm still ur fren, ready to lighten ur burdens and reduce ur sorrows. i'll remember how u cried for me when we were about to say goodbye, how u yelled in unison "kak suyuen, we love u!" how sporting u are in watever tasks i entrusted u guys with, it is an inspiration to me to improve myself for the future. and i hope u'll appreciate the lessons u've learnt during the orientation week as well. lub u guys!!!!

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

lolxx..

not gonna update for anthr 2 more weeks. going back to KMJ. so the latest two posts are to make up for abandoning my blog about 1month plus. TT

i have so much to update about!! i need more time!!

AEE 1688.

this part is the real mood spoiler during the penang trip. Beware!after a long tiring but enjoyable trip, a relaxing journey back is all we want.12.45pmtransnasional's earliest bus was 3pm. impossible for us to wait for 2+ hours ma, so we went around looking for anthr bus. found one departing at 1.15pm. tis fella told us loud loud that it will reach kl by 4.30pm and latest by 5.15pm. ok lor so we trust him lor. when the bus arrived, wow it looked so grand. no scraped off paint, no dusty muddy body, with "malaysia coach" printed nicely. good 1st impression there. but when i entered, ohmigod tis is a pure horror. gloomy looking seats, with some of them kept sliding backwards bcoz lack of the thing to adjust it. ok nvm i still can forgive that. ants crawling along the edge, i still can tolerate. smelly seats i also can be patient. i wanna arrive kl safely, that's all. 1st, the bus delayed for 30mins, wtf. how to arrive at 4.30pm wor if laidat?? so finally when the bus started to move, we were happy. next, it was travelling at a speed even the beca in malacca can overtake it. MF told us the lorries were passing it like nobody's business. definitely no 4.30pm business. but that was small matter. den it started to stop at several places. and the most tragic 1 was when it stopped at a deserted area for about 30mins. u know y? the bus has broken down, for heaven's sake. so ppl started to get down and tried to repair it. bus driver was being so irresponsible and din check his bus properly b4 fetching ppl. so, we wasted so much time in that stuffy bus. finally when the engine was roaring again, we were damn relieved. plz oh plz, no more breakdowns anymore.travelling in tortoise speed, it stopped again after anthr 20mins. every1 were losing patience. and i wanna curse him properly. then, he switched off the air-cond and open the bus roof. i could smell some petrol leaking as well. so pathetic man.. off we go again, stuffy but at least we hope that the prob was solved. good thing no rain. somewhere in the middle of the highway, suddenly he blasted the honk. guess wat, he almost crashed into a car. we almost met in an accident. i almost din get the chance to facebook and post tis note up. plz, everyone. if u were desperate for transport, dun ever risk ur life with tis killer bus. rmbr the number plate. it's stated at the title. i'm helping u to save ur neck.8.15pmat long last, a torturing 1, we arrived pudu. the moment i saw kl tower, phewwwwww..... lega aku......and the closing ceremony for the "worst journey in history" event was he dropped us in front of maybank tower. actually, i wanted to thank him, but yeah the enjoyable ride he gave us had me got down as fast as possible without a second look at him and the bus. that's all for now. rmbr ah, AEE 1688. dun get hypnotized by self-proclaimed time.

penang trip!!!! 2nd-5th may

yeeehhhaaaa!!! juz back from penang island ystdy after a thrilling 3 days, 2 nites there. trying to upload some photos here, but my stubborn card reader refused to detect my memory card. and my abysmal mind tells me that i've forgotten to bring along the cable yikeesssss................. dieeee....2nd mayso yeah, we ( man fai, jia jen, swee yen, li wen and i) arrived there around 1.30pm, took the rapid penang to batu ferringhi and got a guest room there. it was right next to the beach! ^^ after unpacking our luggage and a quick rest, we went to enjoy the sea breeze. my my.... batu ferringhi's beach is so different compared to the pityful 1 at non-island penang. there were so many happenings going on there, u can see horses, kids runnung around building sand castles, banana boats, jetski, the lil turbo car scooting around and so on. we saw this kid trying to bury his torso into the sand. omg, he's so Q!! so we these group of sampat jiejie and korkor got so thrilled looking at him and started taking photos with him. ^^ photos update soon. if only my abysmal mind improves. sobssssok, so i kept telling myself i wont go to the sea, i wont get wet, i duwan to be covered in salt water and sand, but SY was like 'wei.. wo yao xia hai leh.... suyuen, ni yao ma?" i... i.... i actually wanted to quite badly so wat actually happen was, yeah i went in the sea in the end. XD took chance to drench her and she retaliated. so i was wet also (i could feel my earlier promise is shaking its head. wait.. promises have heads???) then, my kind hearted frens decided to bury me in the sand. thanks ya, this is how u treat a bday gal la har so nice lorrrr haha~ ^^no photos available dudududu~~after shower, we went to the food court near our chalet and ordered some penang famous local food. char kuey tiaw, ikan bakar, sambal sotong, prawn noodles, etc. then hor, our stomach still managed to go for 2nd course lolxxx... so we ordered capati and puri (dunno wat tat was, but tasted good ^^ makan je tau.. XD) pasar malam was on that night too. one thing i realise was, the sellers simply shouted prices, and they were always killing ones. tourist area ma, tourists felt the stuff were cheap, but we local ppl tau u're trying to slaughter us. so we ended up bargaining threatening to walk away if they refused to listen to us. the night came.... but too bad i was exhausted.. so missed my 12am XD3rd mayvery wet day.after breakfast at the nostalgic dusty kopitiam that we dreamt of, we went to bukit bendera aka penang hill. took the trem up the hill, and all we saw there was... mist. raining lor tatz y apa pun tak nampak. nvm, this trip is not gonna be spoilt bcoz of this. was lucky coz when we arrived there, some kind of snake performance was going on. if u are a huge fan of dirty fierce pythons and slimy cobras, this 1 is for u. and i am a fan XDyay!journey continued with me getting myself a tattoo, den we were off to kek lok si temple. along the way to the temple, there were many tiny stalls at the rickety pathway. ppl selling amulets, t-shirts, bracelets, keychains and all those buddha figurines. but we got ourselves neckaces, with our names written on a grain of rice. ^^at the temple, we saw about 50 tortoises about the size of my head. and ppl were throwing veggie in the pond for them. i dun see y they should. basically the tortoises would be so full to their throats they might throw up if they swallow another leaf. so the public is actually polluting the pond water only... up we went again to the temple. the moment i stepped in there, i could feel sense of calmness. the temple was great. we said our prayers, took some pics, shared a wish with a lotus candle, LW bought smth for her dad ( i dunno wat that is, but it was this two biji of large marbles where u turn them around with ur hand) and me banging on the huge huge bell that rang the whole place. wanted to visit the new temple, but the lift to bring us there was off duty ady. T__Taround 5.45pm, we departed and again, we stopped by at the shops, where the shopkeepers were screaming prices as low as possible juz to attract customers. "keychains 6 for rm8!"me: wow cheap lor. cheaper than the one we bought juz now *heartache*shop uncle saw me whispering"y? not cheap enaf? ok i give u rm6."our eyes bulged in shock"nvm, i can also give u rm4!"walao uncle!!! ><><

so we took this bus home and i wanna comment smth on it. not in this note. coz this 1 is gonna be a happy memory for all of us. next note ba. arrived at pudu-8.30pm. y so late? next note.best quotations during the trip:at pasar malam"lai lai lai, shorts for rm28. u can wear it both sides."me: one side rm14. recording a video b4 leavingme: LW, wat do u think of gurney?LW: hoho... best. u reli muz go there with empty stomach.sharing sessionJJ: after exams, i'm no longer a human. XDguys, i hope u enjoy reading tis. coz i have a great time typing tis wonderful memory out. i hope we can still continue going for holidays together like tis in the future. love u all for spending time with me during my bday, tis is the best gift for me. friendship that cannot be bought with money. thankssss!!!

MASUM AND MICRO 1410

was browsing thru facebook ystdy and came across my fren's photos. omfg, she uploaded pix on MASUM man.. i cant blif i actually decided not to take part in such event.!! fuckingly mad with myself. if i actually went for it, i would've been able to meet my idols (national swimmers, no play play dere) T___T but thatz not the main purpose.

the reasons i was so heartache over it was i missed the times when i was in SUKMUM, the anxiety and extreme nervousness while waiting for own's events, the cheers for own teammates when they were competing, the glory we shared together whenever we won, the exhaust felt when we were back in college, the celebration and moments of joy, the pride felt in one's heart as we received the medals, and the idea of meeting great ppl in the same sports field is so overwhelmingly meaningful to me. the most important is, SUKMUM has planted the love for swimming deeper in me, which i've come to appreciate with wat i'm capable of. unfortunately, nobody understood this ystdy. nobody at all. Mom even thought i wanted to enter MASUM so badly juz to take photos. =="""" arghh.... i could still feel the bitterness while blogging this. T__T so i came to a conclusion, that in no matter wat happens, i'm gonna join MASUM next year. even if i've to miss a test or fail my assignment or watever fucking business, i'm on with it.

aww..... man..... (takes deep breath)

gonna train hard hard for the competition. and control my diet. and stop having lots of chocolates (mom juz bought old jamaican dark choc ystdy. practically torturing me T__T). learn my somersault and diving properly. I. Want. To. Go. For. MASUM. And. I'm. Serious.

anywayz on the brighter side, i got my new camera today!!! woohoo!! itz olympus micro 1410. gorgeous yellow. man, i love it so so so much after few minutes in playing with it. mission accomplished. XD

yikes, ntg much else to say. tmr starting class again. biochem test is next. watever.

WULALALA~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DADDY!!! woot woot...!! went to the Ship ystdy to celebrate. dad ordered seafood platter, and the rest of us had Spring Chicken. had a great lunch (tasted mocktail for the 1st time too... damn nice!!!)

got dad a pair of trousers (man.. he likes it, oh yeah~. thanks to u for choosing it yah, u know who u are XD) mom and sis bought him a new set of keyboard coz his current 1 produced intolerable click click sounds everytime got pressed.

newayz happy birthday again. though i hardly (in fact i tink i never did) say this but i love you dad. u're a great person. might not be the best, but ahh accepting the flaws is part of life isn't it? anyway, wishing u all the joy and happiness in the world, dad!! ^^

newayz.. let's c... i havent been blogging lately. no prize for guessing act wat i've been doing recently lolxx..... tests are coming all over again. and oh oh... finally.... MPA1 is over!!!! wuahahaa!!! i can actually dance with shakira's "hips dun lie" now gawd damn relieved!!! on the other hand, i can say i reli enjoyed the whole process la.. esp on the real night. EMCEE SUYUEN!!! XD skipped evening's class tat day (4th mac) juz for the last rehearsal. den bathed and changed into my pretty suit. seniors did my makeup and hairdo for me. oh man they're reli pro lar.... thanks to lixin and sylvia, both of u made me look so pretty o~! *whistle*

Tatz me....~~~

my partner, Ashree and i

event started at 8pm. we both were there on the stage, making pre-announcements. not many ppl have arrived yet, and i felt so weird while announcing to the few guests and to the walls and chairs and tables. =="" stood there and smiled for 1 hour while waiting for the VIPs to arrive. it was.... i'm speechless.... with the spotlight shining down at me, all my make up luntur like t-shirt kena bleach only. luckily i had my technical room peeps to chat with me lolx

so after 1 hour of torturous waiting, finally "ladies and gentlemen, announcing the arrival of our guests of honour......!!" the whole event went as smoothly as my oxy10 cream. was even better than i expected. ignore the fading make up, i was so proud of myself for having the courage of doing smth that i've wished for all these while. only few weeks ago i wanted to juz giv it up, but that'll mean betraying my own dream. and i've juz made everything looked good on time!! ^^

then, there was this mpa2 few days later. at crowne plaza mutiara hotel. the moment we arrived there, i was like "wow.....!" the view was amazing. and i reli mean it. glamorous entrance, beautiful lounge, and there was this gorgeous piano at the side of the circular stairs. aww man....... heartz!

i was even more impressed when a waiter carried a tray with drinks to serve to the guests. sheesh tis was so much better than wat we had in pharmnite..!! ^^ the ballroom was superb and our table was situated in one of the best locations u can ever wished for. juz right beside the red carpet itself. and it was full of dedications XD and i act received roses <3>

ok tatz my blur blur morning look ==""

went to watch "love matters" with peeps tat day at midvalley. gawd, it was such a shitty yet funny movie! XD honestly, i reli salute the actors in there for being so bold. was laughing like an idiot throughout the whole movie. the funniest was that married couple. i dunno who was more desperate: the man kept wanting to "do it" with his wife and complaining bout himself being impotent, or the woman who after listening to some stupid theory on men, started buying all those tongkat ali-typed of drinks for her hubby. swt"" anywayz, it was enjoyable la but my advice is" dun watch it with sum1 of diff gender unless u're very open-minded XD

gotta go out now. oh btw, i bought myself more clothes today. orgasm. XD

FINALLY..

ahhhh!!! finally the tsunami ended. 3 killing papers were over today at last, after so many many weeks of pia-ing =="" oh btw, congratz on xiejiao for itz own official blog now!!!! lolxxx...

APK was as usual very meaningless today. watz de point of learning all those peluang pekerjaan and strategic places to set up ur business for a pharmacist, may I ask??? adui.... uni life is not only tiring, but very ridiculous and unexpected too @__@

newayz, today was a relaxed day. ppl were glad tat the tests were finally over. ofcoz, most went out (SS2's pasar malam, mid valley, sunway were among the most popular for UM kids ) and can u blif this:

i'm stranded in college for MPA1's work. wtf!! y did i ever get bureau logistic ah????? its still an unanswered mystery till today. it was the busiest, most time-wasting, most %$*#@% etc etc. do i look like i'm a hardworking person who can handle all these stuff?? if it is den i take it as a compliment. but blif me, i wouldn't wanna b in tis bureau anymore for the rest of my life.

swttttttt. if i could have condemn more, i will. but watz de point of complaining??

nvm. i'll find some time for myself tis week. i muz go out i dun care. come on la... been facing the books till can kisiao tat type 1 u know... i deserve a break..

letz proceed

ystdy's community service was a great success. !! yoohoo~!! it was this programme organised by pharmacy society at Rumah Amal Cheshire, which was a shelter home for unfortunate kids and the disabled ones. i was in logistic bureau, again. But hey, tis is 1 time that i reli enjoyed being in it. ^^

anyway, when i first walked in, there's this rather pityful atmosphere around me. been alwayz touchy with all these stuff. and looking myself and feeling so lucky to be in this state. as they say logistic bureau is like tugas khas where u dun have a proper duty, but juz hopped like a bunny from one place to anthr and helped other bureaus. preparing facilities were also part of our jobs (and that meanz putting up garbage bags around the area. duh~). was so excited with the whole event that i juz couldn't stand still and reli wanted to do smth. went to the exhibition crew to help them with their boards, den oh yeah came the best part: i went to join the children programme bureau. which meanz, fooling with kids!!! it was colouring contest, and i sat with a few kids, get to know dem, guided them in their arts, chatted with them and so on. it reli feels to be back in kindergarten where i worked b4. i missed it so so so much! enjoyed kids asking me wat colours they shud use for certain stuff( "kak, mata kena warna apa?" to which i replied,"apa warna mata u?" XD) juz loved to be with kids larr basically. itz amazing to listen to how they speak on certain things, the q they asked, their laughters, their never ending "look at tis!" when u praised them for their work 1st time. i felt like i'm shut off from the community service and had fun with kids on the other hand ^^.

oh i even taught a kid manners. he saw a colour pencil he wanted from other ppl. reminded him to ask for permission b4 taking, and he actually did. and told him to practise such habit in the future as well. lolxxx.....

den, joined the games session where there was a time when a boy was given a task b4 he can claim his prize. he was to shout "mom, dad, i love you!" . so i was ushering him so much, in the end i stood far away and told him to shout till i can listen to him. whahahaz... i know i'm bad, but it was for fun XD

went strolling to other booths to c wat others were up to. saw dr.mike and his family. den went out to distribute flyers. it was oh man... dunno how to describe. the area around there was a market. it was stinky and the weather was hot. yet i actually went to help the publicity ppl with their flyers. there was once when i passed by a indian mutton seller store, and he had his whole gang of frenz there. he shouted "sudah siap ke? apa tu?" and i had to promote bout the whole thing. and then he joked smth lame like "darah kambing boleh guna untuk test tekanan darah tak?" aduhh... swt me... was about to leave soon den anthr indian old man even asked wat my name is. walaoooooo, run for my life!!!! thk god my fren was there with me. phewwww....

had lunch, den helped the Cheshire Home workers to throw garbage. passed by few of the kids i met earlier. they were so cute, they actually called me and shouted "kak, rajin la!" whahaha.... laughed with them, told them to repeat wat they said kakazzzz.... ^^

after photography sessions, went home. totally knocked out. slept like a pig. but nevertheless, i reli enjoyed the whole day. and to think tat u carried this job with a pharmacy name in urself, it was a very proud moment for every1. we're serving the public, healing them back to health, guide them thru a healthy lifestyle and being there with ppl who needs us. man.. reli touching

late for MPA dy. who cares. gtg XD