So yeah, what am i gonna say? actually i have lotza things to tell ya. but due to the much hectic life and plus the laziness and sleepiness in me now, sorry but u juz gonna get the summary of it.
MPA1 has ended. finally. PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. it was a world of chaos during that period. the process is chaotic, people in there are chaotic, i am chaotic, the whole thing is chaotic. there were moments of joy, moments of heart attacks and nevertheless, i still learn alot in the end of the day. there's so much about mpa1 i cant summarize in here. all i can say is that i actually broke down after the event. can't imagine i shed tears (plenty!) for it. ok not that i wasnt satisfied, it's juz that i wished it could be better. but ppl always said, there is ntg that comes in 100% perfect. if there is, then there's no point of learning.
wait. does that mean i care for what i'm handling? lol, yes!
anyway, i enjoyed going to bed at 4am everyday for 2weeks, with only 2hours of sleep in between b4 going to class, enjoyed falling asleep in class, enjoyed feeling lost and robotic due to lack of sleep, and even enjoyed more the torture i felt because i had two killer papers few days after mpa1, with nothing but air in my brain to sit for the exam. It wasnt easy, going through the 2 papers with an extremely tired mind and soul. i've never felt so horrible and fucked up in my whole life during that period.
and yeah, i got into depression after the 2nd paper. It overpowered me that day. den, right after all the thoughts of suicide, i felt damn cold. thought i was going to die and i half wished so. i got a fever. roommates came back, saw me all wrapped up in blankets with the fan switched off and it was a very sunny day. i skipped my english class coz i was so ill i cant even move an inch off my bed. thank god for my angelic roommate, she got me some hundred plus, i got some nice sleep, which is such a tranquilizer by the time i woke up, i no longer felt depressed. no longer felt sick. i felt so much calmer. falling sick due to exam pressure may seem the reason, but tiredness is what i felt all that time. now i know y ppl said lack of sleep can lead to bad health.
anyway, let's stop all the rantings. did u know i won VIP passes to Earth Hour party at Zouk?????
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i thought i could juz try my luck when the deejay said the 9th person to send in their details will get the pass. and voila, the next moment after he said he'd give a call to the winner, my fon rang! it was my 1st time listening to my voice on air too lolx.....
i am going to Zouk for a PARRRRTTTEEEEYYYYYYYY~~~~~!!!!!!!! i guess. kakakaaaaa
and i AM SO happy for my bestie recently: she had a really big crush on this guy at her college lolxx. aint no revealling her name, later u guys stalk her hmph. it's great listening to her gushing bout that chap, how she always hoped to bump into him in library and stuff. how she stalks him. how she notices his every move. it kinda makes me think of my past, where i used to like some particular guys and even plotting some stupid tactics in order to get him notice me (one involving toothpaste and toothbrush. bestie, u laughing now? kakakaaaaaaa) awwwww... the past. when i was still a silly gal with so many girlish ideas. aint i not now? not really. to be honest, i kinda envy bestie actually. it's been so long ever since i like someone. i mean, i still love seeing good-looking hunks and those thing, but somehow i'm juz like "yeah, he's handsome. anything else?" i no longer have that kinda....feelings. i dunno whther u got my meaning anot. it's like i have remained a stony heart for quite a long period of time. i no longer have all those silly lil crushes on guys anymore, no matter how good-looking or how nice he is or how perfect gentleman he is. to be able to have feelings for someone, to like someone, it seems to have died down inside me.
but i am happy to know at least i am not desperate for such thing. i have my priorities, and i have my own criteria for the guy i will fall for. at least i am not those types who got themselves so upset during break-ups, and then not long later, date some other people, and making their statement clear "i am not single after all." and then flaunting their new asset everywhere they go. juz like paris hilton and her cute chihuahua~~
"hey i'm paris, and this is my tinkerbell. aint he cute????"
"yeah i know. i must have him by my side all the time. that's y i bring him along where ever i go. u like it, dun u?"
tinkerbell looks sad. u're squeezing him too tight, paris! give him some air plz or else he might run away
Yeah whatever. happy for u again bestie. lolxxx..... and what's the best thing to end this post? it's good night, peeps...... !!!
ZOUK PARTY!!!!!!!!!!! *heartz*
