I'M GONNA TYPE THIS IN CAPITAL LETTERS BECAUSE I'M SO
PISSED NOW
AND U KNOW THE ULTIMATE REASON WHY I
HATE FINALS SO FUCKING MUCH IS
IT STOPS ME FROM ATTENDING A BUFFET DINNER AT ARMADA HOTEL TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT, NOW I HAVE TO LIVE ON FRIED KUEY TIAW OR SOME STALE BREAD OR SOGGY VEGGIE FOR MY DINNER TOMORROW!
KILL ME PLZ. DO IT NOW, AND I'LL THANK U.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
randomness
i hate ppl who love posting all their pictures online and giv captions like "i have such big head" "look, pimples!" "how come my face so fat?" etc. if u know u're ugly, dun put it up lor, for beauty's sake. nobody's interested to measure ur head size or count ur pimples, so plz dun give ppl eyesores by posting those so-called pretty pics that u happily criticize.
watever. i dun normally thrash such thing but obviously, my mood is spoilt by the goddamn lousy college food today. recently juz gained back my appetite after previous sufferings of whatever nonsense the college provide us for meals. and now it was totally ruined again.
shit.
tonight's meeting with the mpa1 adhocs. gotta prepare wat i'm gonna say.
bye. class's postponed anyway. and it looks like it's gonna rain soon.
moody and hungry.
watever. i dun normally thrash such thing but obviously, my mood is spoilt by the goddamn lousy college food today. recently juz gained back my appetite after previous sufferings of whatever nonsense the college provide us for meals. and now it was totally ruined again.
shit.
tonight's meeting with the mpa1 adhocs. gotta prepare wat i'm gonna say.
bye. class's postponed anyway. and it looks like it's gonna rain soon.
moody and hungry.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Another boring post out of the blues
blogging this after fed up of looking into my immuno notes with no input at all. i should be working super hard now, come on!!! finals is coming omg, that's like about two more weeks, omg. seriously if i dun buck up i might as well juz tell the lecturer i couldnt bear sitting for the exam, it's gonna be a waste of paper.
haiz.. even when i was napping juz now, i thought i was reading my damn notes. but it was juz a frigging dream. see, it cant even let me have my rest, waduh...
and when i signed into msn, i dun see the person i wished to see. whatever la. not that the person will speak to me also. obviously he's too busy for ppl like me. whatever. like i care.
monday blues for me as usual. how come i always have to enjoy myself so much at home and then suddenly got slapped on the face with boring lectures and stupid tests. sien. i want to go for a vacation now. fuck exams. fuck finals.
and i skipped it again ystdy. i guess it's juz anthr consequence they have to face for the bad decision. read me. bad decision. sometimes( no, i mean everytime) i reli feel like quitting. it's juz not my thing to be involved. blame me for being irresponsible? nah, i know what and where and when i should be responsible. and for this, what can i say, sorry i'm juz not interested.
but how to approach them? i dunno. it guilts me to think about someone who has the trust on me, but somehow my heart is juz not into all these thing.
can i leave?
can i??
dunno. i should continue with my studies now.
haiz.. even when i was napping juz now, i thought i was reading my damn notes. but it was juz a frigging dream. see, it cant even let me have my rest, waduh...
and when i signed into msn, i dun see the person i wished to see. whatever la. not that the person will speak to me also. obviously he's too busy for ppl like me. whatever. like i care.
monday blues for me as usual. how come i always have to enjoy myself so much at home and then suddenly got slapped on the face with boring lectures and stupid tests. sien. i want to go for a vacation now. fuck exams. fuck finals.
and i skipped it again ystdy. i guess it's juz anthr consequence they have to face for the bad decision. read me. bad decision. sometimes( no, i mean everytime) i reli feel like quitting. it's juz not my thing to be involved. blame me for being irresponsible? nah, i know what and where and when i should be responsible. and for this, what can i say, sorry i'm juz not interested.
but how to approach them? i dunno. it guilts me to think about someone who has the trust on me, but somehow my heart is juz not into all these thing.
can i leave?
can i??
dunno. i should continue with my studies now.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Appreciation.....
Juz read someone's blog post about her memories of her deceased dad and how much she missed him. it simply sent my tears flowing. her guilt of not visiting her ill dad coz of her exams, how her dad showered his undefined love to her and the family, his deep thoughts in protecting and keeping his family safe while he's no longer with them. It made me think of how i've been treating my family this whole 19years of living. am i a filial daughter so far? have i done things that made them proud so far, or am i just a parasite at home and in this society?
Humans only appreciate something when it's no longer with us. we tend to make mistake, hurt other ppl without realising, being stupid with ourselves. people always said i'm too dependent of my family, whenever i told them that my troubles and sadness and thoughts are only shared with my family, they told me that i'm such a mommy gal, daddy gal, family gal, etc. i can go to the extend to cancel all my plans and go home juz to be with them, celebrating each other's birthdays, anniversaries, sis's success in her projects and exams, dad's employment, mom's payment increase etc. there's ntg fucking wrong with it. my family is more important than myself. loving them means my whole life. the comfort i feel in it cannot be compared to anything or anywhere else in this world.
i have my way of appreciating these ppl, and i dont want to regret in the future for the times when i could have be with them and i din, when i could have hold my mom's hands but i din, when i could have listened to my sis complaining about her lousy teachers and bitchy frenz but i din, when i could have help my dad to make his cup of tea for him but i din.
i reli dont want to regret.
for the gal who misses her dad, stay strong. whenever u're crying under ur blanket at night, whenever u're looking back at the photos of u and ur dad sharing moments together, rmbr that he's not gone. he lives in u and ur family. he's alive wherever u are. close ur eyes and u'll feel his presence, keeping u safe and warm with his tender heart and spirit
Humans only appreciate something when it's no longer with us. we tend to make mistake, hurt other ppl without realising, being stupid with ourselves. people always said i'm too dependent of my family, whenever i told them that my troubles and sadness and thoughts are only shared with my family, they told me that i'm such a mommy gal, daddy gal, family gal, etc. i can go to the extend to cancel all my plans and go home juz to be with them, celebrating each other's birthdays, anniversaries, sis's success in her projects and exams, dad's employment, mom's payment increase etc. there's ntg fucking wrong with it. my family is more important than myself. loving them means my whole life. the comfort i feel in it cannot be compared to anything or anywhere else in this world.
i have my way of appreciating these ppl, and i dont want to regret in the future for the times when i could have be with them and i din, when i could have hold my mom's hands but i din, when i could have listened to my sis complaining about her lousy teachers and bitchy frenz but i din, when i could have help my dad to make his cup of tea for him but i din.
i reli dont want to regret.
for the gal who misses her dad, stay strong. whenever u're crying under ur blanket at night, whenever u're looking back at the photos of u and ur dad sharing moments together, rmbr that he's not gone. he lives in u and ur family. he's alive wherever u are. close ur eyes and u'll feel his presence, keeping u safe and warm with his tender heart and spirit
testing.. testing...1, 2, 3..
phew, it's soooooo dusty in here oh man~~!!! when i logged in and i saw the date i last updated here was 4th july. sorry bloggie, for abandoning u for so long time ==""
ok there's no way i can splurge everything out in 5months in a blog. being busy is part of my vocab for this sem, not including all the times when i procrastinated, gave excuses bout connection slow, laptop no battery, tired, haven't bathe, etc when in fact i'm juz too lazy to update in here.
whatever la.
so what am i so busy this sem?
life's pretty good lately. 2nd year is definitely a roller-coaster ride, no kidding. the moment u're going high up, u come down screaming ur head off. and being a senior has definitely some change in uni life. let's hear it from the mighty me.
starting of sem:
-MMP. organised the moral slot. at least i felt more spirited to start my new sem. kept myself busy is what i love, ignore assignments plz.
-pharmacy orientation. woohoo.. call me orientator suyuen. it went on 3weeks, we helping those new kids adapting to pharmacy. it felt a bit weird for me though, coz they're either older or same age as me, lolll....nevertheless, i've found myself a very chio lil buddy. (ps: i'm still the youngest in line, coz he's a few months older, whakaka... big buddy complained that her graduation next time will be full of small kids attending swttt.)
-3 pieces of adorable assignments. on the 2nd week!!! omg~~!! dun remind me about it, tq.
-tests after tests since 4th week. until today. every week, yeah. it would've taken all 9 lives of a cat
middle of sem:
- tests. i'm gonna type this word out till the end of this post.
-and this 1 too. assignments
- pharmily day. performed again this year =)
-cc interactive games. chaostic.
-mpa1. organising camp now =)
-pharmacy's COP. working under my big buddy. tension. whakakaaa
end of sem:
-found time for my bloggie. lolx. nah i've finally decided to do some justice for it, poor thing. and also to those following up my blog and complaining no updates. lalala~
basically that's what i've been up to.at least these are some things i remembered doing. and what has happened with the way i'm blogging, the words and ideas din seem to come up. swt. will do better in the next post. if there's one. coming up next, it's my finals. c u guys in another 1 month, perhaps lol.
oh yeah, am hoping to be able to make it to sarawak this coming sem hols. cant wait!
phew, it's soooooo dusty in here oh man~~!!! when i logged in and i saw the date i last updated here was 4th july. sorry bloggie, for abandoning u for so long time ==""
ok there's no way i can splurge everything out in 5months in a blog. being busy is part of my vocab for this sem, not including all the times when i procrastinated, gave excuses bout connection slow, laptop no battery, tired, haven't bathe, etc when in fact i'm juz too lazy to update in here.
whatever la.
so what am i so busy this sem?
life's pretty good lately. 2nd year is definitely a roller-coaster ride, no kidding. the moment u're going high up, u come down screaming ur head off. and being a senior has definitely some change in uni life. let's hear it from the mighty me.
starting of sem:
-MMP. organised the moral slot. at least i felt more spirited to start my new sem. kept myself busy is what i love, ignore assignments plz.
-pharmacy orientation. woohoo.. call me orientator suyuen. it went on 3weeks, we helping those new kids adapting to pharmacy. it felt a bit weird for me though, coz they're either older or same age as me, lolll....nevertheless, i've found myself a very chio lil buddy. (ps: i'm still the youngest in line, coz he's a few months older, whakaka... big buddy complained that her graduation next time will be full of small kids attending swttt.)
-3 pieces of adorable assignments. on the 2nd week!!! omg~~!! dun remind me about it, tq.
-tests after tests since 4th week. until today. every week, yeah. it would've taken all 9 lives of a cat
middle of sem:
- tests. i'm gonna type this word out till the end of this post.
-and this 1 too. assignments
- pharmily day. performed again this year =)
-cc interactive games. chaostic.
-mpa1. organising camp now =)
-pharmacy's COP. working under my big buddy. tension. whakakaaa
end of sem:
-found time for my bloggie. lolx. nah i've finally decided to do some justice for it, poor thing. and also to those following up my blog and complaining no updates. lalala~
basically that's what i've been up to.at least these are some things i remembered doing. and what has happened with the way i'm blogging, the words and ideas din seem to come up. swt. will do better in the next post. if there's one. coming up next, it's my finals. c u guys in another 1 month, perhaps lol.
oh yeah, am hoping to be able to make it to sarawak this coming sem hols. cant wait!
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