FINALLY..

ahhhh!!! finally the tsunami ended. 3 killing papers were over today at last, after so many many weeks of pia-ing =="" oh btw, congratz on xiejiao for itz own official blog now!!!! lolxxx...

APK was as usual very meaningless today. watz de point of learning all those peluang pekerjaan and strategic places to set up ur business for a pharmacist, may I ask??? adui.... uni life is not only tiring, but very ridiculous and unexpected too @__@

newayz, today was a relaxed day. ppl were glad tat the tests were finally over. ofcoz, most went out (SS2's pasar malam, mid valley, sunway were among the most popular for UM kids ) and can u blif this:

i'm stranded in college for MPA1's work. wtf!! y did i ever get bureau logistic ah????? its still an unanswered mystery till today. it was the busiest, most time-wasting, most %$*#@% etc etc. do i look like i'm a hardworking person who can handle all these stuff?? if it is den i take it as a compliment. but blif me, i wouldn't wanna b in tis bureau anymore for the rest of my life.

swttttttt. if i could have condemn more, i will. but watz de point of complaining??

nvm. i'll find some time for myself tis week. i muz go out i dun care. come on la... been facing the books till can kisiao tat type 1 u know... i deserve a break..

letz proceed

ystdy's community service was a great success. !! yoohoo~!! it was this programme organised by pharmacy society at Rumah Amal Cheshire, which was a shelter home for unfortunate kids and the disabled ones. i was in logistic bureau, again. But hey, tis is 1 time that i reli enjoyed being in it. ^^

anyway, when i first walked in, there's this rather pityful atmosphere around me. been alwayz touchy with all these stuff. and looking myself and feeling so lucky to be in this state. as they say logistic bureau is like tugas khas where u dun have a proper duty, but juz hopped like a bunny from one place to anthr and helped other bureaus. preparing facilities were also part of our jobs (and that meanz putting up garbage bags around the area. duh~). was so excited with the whole event that i juz couldn't stand still and reli wanted to do smth. went to the exhibition crew to help them with their boards, den oh yeah came the best part: i went to join the children programme bureau. which meanz, fooling with kids!!! it was colouring contest, and i sat with a few kids, get to know dem, guided them in their arts, chatted with them and so on. it reli feels to be back in kindergarten where i worked b4. i missed it so so so much! enjoyed kids asking me wat colours they shud use for certain stuff( "kak, mata kena warna apa?" to which i replied,"apa warna mata u?" XD) juz loved to be with kids larr basically. itz amazing to listen to how they speak on certain things, the q they asked, their laughters, their never ending "look at tis!" when u praised them for their work 1st time. i felt like i'm shut off from the community service and had fun with kids on the other hand ^^.

oh i even taught a kid manners. he saw a colour pencil he wanted from other ppl. reminded him to ask for permission b4 taking, and he actually did. and told him to practise such habit in the future as well. lolxxx.....

den, joined the games session where there was a time when a boy was given a task b4 he can claim his prize. he was to shout "mom, dad, i love you!" . so i was ushering him so much, in the end i stood far away and told him to shout till i can listen to him. whahahaz... i know i'm bad, but it was for fun XD

went strolling to other booths to c wat others were up to. saw dr.mike and his family. den went out to distribute flyers. it was oh man... dunno how to describe. the area around there was a market. it was stinky and the weather was hot. yet i actually went to help the publicity ppl with their flyers. there was once when i passed by a indian mutton seller store, and he had his whole gang of frenz there. he shouted "sudah siap ke? apa tu?" and i had to promote bout the whole thing. and then he joked smth lame like "darah kambing boleh guna untuk test tekanan darah tak?" aduhh... swt me... was about to leave soon den anthr indian old man even asked wat my name is. walaoooooo, run for my life!!!! thk god my fren was there with me. phewwww....

had lunch, den helped the Cheshire Home workers to throw garbage. passed by few of the kids i met earlier. they were so cute, they actually called me and shouted "kak, rajin la!" whahaha.... laughed with them, told them to repeat wat they said kakazzzz.... ^^

after photography sessions, went home. totally knocked out. slept like a pig. but nevertheless, i reli enjoyed the whole day. and to think tat u carried this job with a pharmacy name in urself, it was a very proud moment for every1. we're serving the public, healing them back to health, guide them thru a healthy lifestyle and being there with ppl who needs us. man.. reli touching

late for MPA dy. who cares. gtg XD

LET THESE BE OVER SOON....

examz and examz. i tink i'm going mad soon. least is depression ( and i got a feeling i've ady had a gist of it T__T)

better not pressure myself. wouldn't wanna enter asylum b4 i could get my degree. but wargh.. i reli cant stand it anymore!!!!!

spent my pityful valentine's day with books and notes and headaches. but i was grateful. had frenz who greeted me. thanks guyz, for remembering me ^^ mom got me this lovely wallet, as a small token for v-day. u know mom, i've alwayz wanted to say tis and i've been repeating for like zillionth time, u are a darling to me!! i cant imagine life without u. dun need to imagine, i'll take my life if u left me. mom, i love u alot. the way u support me, guide me throughout my ups and downs, the love and time and care u poured on me, itz undefined and not even all the money in the world can pay for this. u were there when i'm dealing with depression and misery, u were the angel that i worshipped since i was born, u were everything God has blessed me with. gosh, i shud keep this for mother's day i think. XD

proceed.

anyway, a good fren came to my coll to watch the sukmum basketball competition. gosh, so unexpected, but nevertheless i was glad to see him and the rest of the KMJ-ians that i missed so so so very much. they're like the coolest frenz that i ever had the fortune to meet. no matter how many palz i earned in UM, it's juz never the same with all of u ppl. hopefully we can go out yamcha one day la, if pharmacy hasnt turned me into a mad woman yet.

received a valentine's msg from someone. my gawd, i cant blif he did. ya lar i admit, i got a crush on him la. like him for his fun-loving character. ok stop. aint exposing too much in bloggie.

ciaoz... 2 hours of freaking on9 and acting like tests are ages away. benkyou!!!!

ERRMMMMM........

started the week feeling bored and perhaps not in the mood at all.

aikx dunno watz wrong with me

feels like i cant reli feel
as happy and carefree as last time
izit the aura here tatz not suitable
or the prob is with me
still undefined...

anywayz,
physical pharmacy test today
it was erm... haizz did some silly mistakes
and even forgot smth that i juz memorized
damn sad
tis subject
i could only hope to score from these tests
coz it seemz tat this lecturer
he was very very stingy in markz
seniors said u'll die kao kao in finalz
worries me like hell
and now i go put myself in tis situation
kanasai big time....

ppl were happy with the test ended
a fren even sounded grateful
tat i told her to memo a part
that actually came out in test today
but fuck it, that was also the smth that i forgotten
i hate mental blocks

T__T

and heterocyclic test results was out
3 more to full marks
but dunno watz wrong
i was disappointed with it too
y cant i learn
the meaning of gratitude??
upset coz i was a lil bit lower than the rest
but y cant i stop myself
from comparing
and juz judge myself????
damn stupid, since sem1 also laidat
keep telling myself
i duwan compare i duwan compare
but y still laidat??
make myself miserable for ntg nia~
u muz learn to let loose, suyuen!!!!!
asyik like tis,
u gonna kisiao b4 u graduate!!

chatted with mom,
spilled out all the bu shuang-ness
feeling much better now
still got more tests to go!
stop thinking wat has passed,
focus on the upcoming ones!!!


valentine's day coming
adui..... so wat...
itz juz anthr day for me
celebrate myself lorr!!

FAMILY DAY 2009-HAPPY PHARMILY

ystdy was full rehearsal for performance family day till 7.30pm. and suddenly they decided to add two more characters in the drama.. and of them was held by me.... try guess wat it is b4 u scroll down...whakakakakakakka

as early as 7.30am, medic fac was never that cheerful with loud music blasting away and 3rd years arranging the game stations and registration going on etc. after we got our badges, we did some last practice, laughing at each other's extreme SS-ness and great expressions.

started off with some aerobic
den it was time for the outdoor games
there were 10 stations
and they have all sorts of games
it reminded us of the fun fair type
u know
throwing coins into the boxes to get points and stuff
it was quite fun act
but the mood is spoilt with the increasing hot weather
and we din wanna get ourselves sweaty
coz later wanna make up and look nice
for drama ma....... XDXD


due to some technical error we couldn't take part in the indoor games
so we rushed to the bathroom
roomie was a great make-up artist
i couldn't blif she could act make me
looking juz exactly the role i'm holding

she's marvellous, i can't ask for more
drama crew were amazed with it too
plus with my glare and evil squint
gawd.... i'm purr-fect XD
now juz gotta depend on my acting
which i was feeling good with it
coz i actually offered myself for it
was excited with such cool character
i wanted to bring out
the nastiness in me
not juz remain sweet and simple
all the time
i know i can do it, coz i have
high confidence in myself.
yeah~ bring it on!!

letz check this out......

wat will u do if this thing sneaks behind u when u're looking at urself in the mirror..?

yup, i'm the evilish, scary Devil!!!!! grrrargh!!!

i knew i was half successful

when a kid passed in front of me

and he shouted, "HANTU!"

ok i think i sorta scare him too

coz i was making all those scary looks at him

baring my teeth and looking at him fiercely

the playfulness in me is boiling up again

it has alwayz been my favourite to

get playful with kidz

and then, he started to show those stunt moves

of Ultraman-like

and me also followed the same

but i did a wong fei hung version

meihui: "u also gila with him ah!"

and then that boy,

he ran to abang najib, our dept.'s assistant,

and tried to hide behind him

pointing at me

abang najib laughed

and said "itu orang lah!!"

whakakakakakakakaka~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

drama was about to start *heart thumping*

we went in, stood beside the stage

waited for own's turn

and then this same boy

he came in with a balloon

and then he spotted me

laughed and called me hantu again

gave him my best cruel evil smile

this time he was braver

came to me and stood beside me

patted him on the head

kidz are so adorable!! gosh~

juz simply love friendly kidz

hmmmmm..............

told him to sit with the audience

so that he can see me clearer later

he did XD

finally it was my turn

went up the stage

hunching and extended my hands

glanced at every1 evilly

and then

A HIGH PITCHED SHRILL LAUGH

and

A DEEP SCARY VOICE( like i'm about to swallow u)

did my role so well

i was even surprised with myself and my acting skills XD

ahhh... love every moment of it!

frenz were congratulating

"my god, u're so scary!"

"i can never do tat. it looks so real!"

lolxxx.... see? knew i can make ppl say tat ^o^

too bad i forgotten to ask sum1 to record it for me

aikxxx

anywayz,everyone was fantabulous

in their parts contributing in this drama

they're all great actors and actresses

with creative storyline and cool music

it was a booming success

considering we hardly rehearsed

and my role was juz only included

the day before ^^

i'm sure if there's an award

for best performance

it'll be the first years (tatz us!)

FIRST YEAR POWER!!

more pix. enjoy, peeps!!

the best drama crew pharmacy ever had ^^

third years were great too. theyt were the ones who organised tis family day.all the backdrops and decorations and the flow of the whole event and the MOST important, their hard work and spirit. i juz have smth to say: CONGRATULATIONS!! u guyz rocks!!!

gotta get some good rest b4 starting intensive revision soon..... ciaozzz

in computer lab now. waiting for the drama rehearsal to start.

ntg reli happen recently,

family day's tmr

going to watch my fren's basketball match today

mpa1's starting work soon ==""

and i realise, i reli miss them alot

T__T

peeps been caring towards me

advise me and stuff

thx guyz

things might not be as easy as it is

but i appreciate the words u gave me

tat family is alwayz the one for us

i know

i felt the pain when i'm typing this out

the pain of being far from them

and tat i shud learn to accept them for who they are

the pain of listening to their voices

of comfort

gosh gotta stop it b4 my tears rolled down for the whole lab to laugh at me

anyway will be back home tmr, and tis time

i'll seal all unhappy feelings

try to make up with dad (if tatz possible)

get on with some family meals

bore them with rants on how stress pharmacy is (lol..)

spend more time with them

and appreciate every single moment we have together ^^


ok shifting to life in UM..

things have been under control so far
but pharmacy aint looking good
tests and more tests are coming soon
and omfg, the topics covered are huge!!!
physio, physical pharmacy, ppku and biochem
they're all coming like tsunami
and they're juz exactly like tsunami
destructive, dangerous, massive
heavy subjects
i wonder whether i have enaf time and brains
to even pass the paper, put aside scoring it
aikxxxx..... terrible
y do i land up with this course anyway
ystdy was debating with frenz bout
how life shud be carried out
enjoy and experience wat the world's gotta offer us
or bury in thick books and endless formulas
and hair-tearing theories
i mean its reli a waste of time going thru all these
going for exams(which is the only thing tat drives us to study)
and then *poof* we forget wat we learn
try throwing me a q on wat the structures of stomach is
and i'll stare at u blankly

see? see wat i mean by meaningless learning?
we dun reli apply wat we learn now in future
when i graduate(which i still doubt whether i can or not)
i wont be telling patients wat carbohydrates are
or wat is renal system
i'll juz prescribe them the medicine they want
for their headaches or severe skin allegies wat
reli reli dun und......

am gonna stop ranting.

rehearsal's starting. byezzzz