in computer lab now. waiting for the drama rehearsal to start.

ntg reli happen recently,

family day's tmr

going to watch my fren's basketball match today

mpa1's starting work soon ==""

and i realise, i reli miss them alot

T__T

peeps been caring towards me

advise me and stuff

thx guyz

things might not be as easy as it is

but i appreciate the words u gave me

tat family is alwayz the one for us

i know

i felt the pain when i'm typing this out

the pain of being far from them

and tat i shud learn to accept them for who they are

the pain of listening to their voices

of comfort

gosh gotta stop it b4 my tears rolled down for the whole lab to laugh at me

anyway will be back home tmr, and tis time

i'll seal all unhappy feelings

try to make up with dad (if tatz possible)

get on with some family meals

bore them with rants on how stress pharmacy is (lol..)

spend more time with them

and appreciate every single moment we have together ^^


ok shifting to life in UM..

things have been under control so far
but pharmacy aint looking good
tests and more tests are coming soon
and omfg, the topics covered are huge!!!
physio, physical pharmacy, ppku and biochem
they're all coming like tsunami
and they're juz exactly like tsunami
destructive, dangerous, massive
heavy subjects
i wonder whether i have enaf time and brains
to even pass the paper, put aside scoring it
aikxxxx..... terrible
y do i land up with this course anyway
ystdy was debating with frenz bout
how life shud be carried out
enjoy and experience wat the world's gotta offer us
or bury in thick books and endless formulas
and hair-tearing theories
i mean its reli a waste of time going thru all these
going for exams(which is the only thing tat drives us to study)
and then *poof* we forget wat we learn
try throwing me a q on wat the structures of stomach is
and i'll stare at u blankly

see? see wat i mean by meaningless learning?
we dun reli apply wat we learn now in future
when i graduate(which i still doubt whether i can or not)
i wont be telling patients wat carbohydrates are
or wat is renal system
i'll juz prescribe them the medicine they want
for their headaches or severe skin allegies wat
reli reli dun und......

am gonna stop ranting.

rehearsal's starting. byezzzz