EWWW... LOOK AT URSELF IN THE MIRROR B4 APPROACHING PRETTY GALS K....

i finally realised i have market around the old men too. was at popular yesterday. reading magazines while waiting for mom and sis for lunch. den suddenly tis reli slimy old man came around and asked, "u chinese or malay?" i looked at him and had him repeated 3 times only iunderstood wat he was asking. after telling him, he walked off and i tot case settled. den he came near me again and..

"today no school?"
"no"
"where did u study, wat name?"

ok u tink i'm a small lil gal talking to a stranger. but i always talk to strangers and ntg has happen to me so far. and i tot he was the manager of the store or smth trying to make some conversation coz i've been there for quite a long time.

and then.."ur fon number?" and took out his fon, ready to save those lil digits he was quite incredulously convinced i would give him. excuse me even if u have no ethics watsoever, at least ask may i have ur fon num. u're talking to a temporary moral teacher, for fon num's sake.

waved no nicely to him. and he kept his fon and walked off. swtttt i wonder wat he saw in me. i dun exactly look pretty. in normal tee and shorts with my glasses on. and large acne around my face. but i consider him good taste anyway. my advice is clearly written as my title.

few mins later, i heard someone mumbling behind me. looked and saw anthr filthy old guy, looking worse den me in his shorts and white tee. mumbling mumbling mumbling. not a slightest idea wat he was talking. in fact i tink he was a bit loose in the head. din seem to know what he was doing. den he stood beside me, opened the mag i took and started browsing thru. and then continued mumbling. omfg~! i gotta pretend i've done reading and went off. popular had so many weirdos lurking around me!!

went for anthr shopping spree with bestie at midvalley last week. we were darn determined to buy smth from there. robinson's kononnye sale. so, went over to gardens. yeah sale. even with 90% discount i still gotta think twice. but it was at isetan i found my current dream boutique. Iora. fell in love with its clothes at 1U. yeah it wasnt tat cheap but i love the blouses, skirts and everything! so very sophisticated and exactly the styles i like. limiting only 1 blouse from there, i had a hard time choosing, kept changing after one anthr to compare. and finally i picked tis

my gorgeous new lime green blouse from Iora! love the comfortable material and nice design. and it makes me look slim in it. thumbs up! =)

and i dun have this colour anyway.

check out their purchase bags.

so nice for a bag!!!!

that's my keychain. bday pressie from sis

lol i love tis bag. tat explains the reason for the many pics of it.

von dear also got a superb blouse from there. gals, u wanna pamper urself? go for Iora=)

got smth from gardens. so headed to midvalley once more. i wanted a dress. so here it is. found tis sweet lil one in Colours.

look at the pretty floral print on it!!! and tis dress makes me look slimmer lolx..

now i am waiting for my salary to arrive. wanna sew the hole i had in my wallet. but hey, spending alot on things i love is part of me. i enjoy pampering myself =)

ok bedtime for me!nitezzzz

CONFESSIONS OF A DISAPPOINTED STUDENT AND A USELESS TEACHER

a happy belated father's day to my dearest daddy. u're growing old with grace, and i still love u like a great daughter does. ^^

and let's pay a tribute to the late Michael Jackson, the legendary king of pop. von dear, dun be sad anymore la k. i'll giv u a big wet kiss tomorrow when we meet. *hugz* lol... (von: =.="")

i'm getting into the life of teaching. things happen yesterday that makes me open my heart to notice and feel stuff that i never get to have before this. i look at things on someone else's point of view, and before i realise it, i'm sharing the responsibility, joy and sadness for the students. i never knew with only juz a few days in this school, i actually have such compassion for them.


in the morning class, my dear students and i were enjoying lessons together. i was so excited about a boy knowing how to cook it sent the front few rows of pupils i'm talking to laughing. gave them some notes to copy which were asked to b pass up b4 school dismissed. then my class ended, the same boy came up to me and asked bout culinary courses and stuff like baking classes. omg can u blif it, he is into french delicacies!!! and he wants to learn those pastry making, bread, chocolate, cakes and watever sweet other foods u can think of. guys, buck up plz. if u wanna make me fall in love with u, dun come telling me "eh i can cook. maggi mee, u want?" only. yummylicious. too bad, he's too young for me. whahaha....anyway, everything went well until i went for next class in form5. the kids were anthr nice bunch, cracking stupid jokes with watever i taught them. it was during recess, then i stayed a lil while again to chat with the boys. that was when i listened to a confession.



"how were ur sivik classes b4 this? i asked.

"sux. we cant und a single thing at all. language command not good. but teacher din seem to bother. so we also totally giv up during her lessons. either pretend to listen or sleep. if we have a teacher like u to communicate with us, we're happy. but other than that, we juz simply waste our time away. as a student b4, i tink u've experienced it, dui ma?"

"wo liao jie.."

anthr student pipped," teacher, how long will u b here b4 leaving for uni?"

"erm.. let's say until around july?"

"wat!!? walao, means we'll have lessons for juz anthr few more weeks den no teachers again."

u see they were devastated. not exactly happy to be abandoned by the school having no teachers for so many months and kept having new faces to teach them and then leave. it's like Touch n' Go. how sad. it made me felt worse when the confessed student said in that disappointed look "it's laidat 1 la. we change teachers till we dun even mind anymore who actually comes in."


these kids, they knew wat they want. and it's not being left having no lessons. they wud prefer someone to teach them even in these minor subjects. there were no happy or excited or we-dun-care looks. only dejected. which made me recalled how we sometimes used to groan and complained hoping we have some free time and not going for lessons, skipping classes coz we dislike the teachers or the lessons. it's not how things were supposed to be.

the whole day passed quite peacefully until the form4 class monitor came to hand in the books.
the english teacher of the class saw it, and she said smth that broke my heart.

"this class is very very terrible. 20 of them failed in my english. i told them, i said, u better come up with a solution on this prob. if there's no solution, i will not teach. i will do my work, u will do ur own work."

and then she continued. "i can see not everybody passed up the books."

wtf!!! hey does it matter to u even if nobody passes up my books?? juz bcoz they failed in a language which is not their strongest, u condemned them, boycotted them, forced them to come out with a solution which i tink supposed to be part of ur damn job as a teacher. u're paid to teach them, not ignore them! omg this donkey of a teacher dared to talk to me laidat. she has totally given up on her pupils. no wonder she was late to class ystdy and i had to tell the monitor to find her. and she was not even in the staffroom. she went gambolling around to photocopy smth. supposedly u tink she has smth urgent to do and no time to enter the class. eh come on la, it's ur lesson time. u mean to ignore them juz bcoz they failed ur paper and go on doing ur stuff???? no wonder they have no respect for u! u're obviously delaying all ur work for the last minute and den finding excuses not to enter the class. wtf if u're so not willing, stop torturing the pupils and hand in ur resignation letter!! the students deserved someone better to be their teacher. call urself a master graduate. it's worth ntg if u cannot deliver ur knowledge to the students. fucking lazy. like as if the students love to fail. like as if they're born to fail english tests. i hope ur son or daughter fails in all his or her papers, especially english. den i wud love to see how u can come up with a solution and probably have enaf neurons in ur brain to apply it to the students.

omg, i cant blif i rant over ppl like her.

and the school. plz for heaven's sake. u leave them at those arts classes having no teachers for so many months. 4 fucking months, to be specific! i was telling mom ystdy that my hope is tat the school will be able to find a substitute teacher asap to replace me. plz dun ever neglect them laidat anymore, it's heartbreaking.

my best wishes for the kids i love alot.

STORIES AGAIN

haha b4 i start crapping, lets take a look at this gorgeous face. recently i'm into uploading my photos everywhere. for ur benefits la, duwan ppl complain y i seem to have lack my power in ss-ing liao. swttttt.. anyway, sum1 saw this and said i've turned into a lady. whakaka wat is tat supposed to mean? lol. personally i love this pic. it kinda makes me look like a graceful ballet dancer or smth. dun agree? go away. XD

anyways, u know wat suyuen has been up to recently? no shopping, no. though i wud love to go poking around in Pavilion's Juicy Couture to see if there's any nice bags or blingblings i can pamper myself with. ok i went to take up the temporary teacher in my mom's skul. teaching moral and sivik haha can u blif tat? the subj i hate the most. i scored A for moral only once in my whole life during sec skul, and tatz during spm. and wat the heck is sivik besides being the new subj i've never taken b4? =D

yesterday's lesson was only 1 period. with a form4 class. i spent 10minz looking at "Melindungi Hak Kanak-kanak", the value i was supposed to teach tat day. den the rest of my time is spent facebooking, reading, sleeping, nervous-ing, going to bathroom, yawning, nervous-ing and... nervous-ing. i knew dealing with 16 yr olds are not the same with kids. kids are more carefree and innocent. these ppl, if u do any mistakes, they'll talk about u, laugh at u and embarrass u. eurgh.. dun "ya meh?' me. u're also a student ok. haha.

when i entered the class, students gave me this oh-we-have-a-young-teacher-here look. the greetings part was pretty funny. they chanted it so slowly and having to be called teacher again felt nice. haha but tis young teacher leh she was not happy with the speed they greeted her, so she told them to repeat. lol.

started by introducing myself. 1 of them was cheeky enough to ask for phone number. =="" den someone asked me how i managed to enter UM. and i went on explaining bout the pathways after spm. many seem to have given up the idea of not able to enter uni, and i found myself being a grandmom again telling them the usual thing of "dun giv up, blif in urself, ntg is impossible" yada yada. added bout moral being not ez, but also not hard.

left bout 15minz for the lesson. talked to them bout children's rights, child abuse, wat a child deserve, life experiences and found myself being relax. they were listening, i knew they were. coz i spoke to them in my abysmal mandarin, and whenever i couldn't find a word, they helped me to complete my sentence. well. good sign.... there was a time i mentioned about premarital sex leading to abortion, they started to make such a racket. 38 betulll.... maybe they've never had such open-minded teacher telling them straight about all these lol. there was this particular boy. i thought he looked kinda cute. he was always asking me q. tat helped me quite alot coz at least i had smth to talk about. once, he even asked me whether there's any case of children wanting to sue their parents coz he had a fren wanted to do that. i was like "well yeah...". and then anthr case was i asked if they've watched "i not stupid" movies. and he was like "i got. but i like crayon shin chan more."

me: yeah i love him too
the cute boy: he's my idol!
me: he's my idol too, dun rebut with me.

he gave me tis look of disbelief, dunno whether to laugh or not. and his fren turned to laugh at him haha...... so damn childish la me. but hey, y so serious?

i cant blif i actually "argued" with my student bcoz of u. hng.

and i loved the way the way they said they'd block the door so tat the next teacher cant come in when the bell rang. kakaaa... when pupils came in the class, i stopped telling stories and the same boy said,"lao shi, continue. ignore them." lol. muz find out wat his name is next lesson.

will be reading on Carmen bin Ladin's story(Inside the Kingdom). i tink it'll help me in getting some ideas for next value(melindungi hak wanita). Souad's tale (read this book: Burned Alive) which i've read b4 will be an asset too. thanks, u both ladies!

oh yeah, let u guys see my new ugly eyebrows.

dun ask me y.. devastating right? spoil my pretty looks only. T__T

something random. i saw this in Giant supermarket.

toilet paper sale. the white tag was BEFORE discount. and the yellow 1 is AFTER discount. wow, i saved alot of money!! thanks Giant!

wanna go bathe. byee

TRAIN HARD, EAT LESS!!

with tis, i proudly announced that for two days i went swimming, i did a whooping total of 229laps!! whakaka ofcoz, it's the 25m 1 lar. (i can almost hear some green monsters making faces at me and mumbled "cheh, 229 only mar, very geng meh?") whahaha i dun carre wat u tink, it's a great achievement for me. haven't been training ever since SUKMUM ended. which was like... 5months plus ago? =="" watever.

1st day was 100 laps. whoa, i was dead hungry by then. went to a restaurant near mines wonderland. one of my favourites. the paper-wrapped chicken esp. omg!! i ate like all those ppl who were starved for days. (paisehnyer..) so the 100lapz made no effect in reducing my layers of fat. huarrghhhh ~~!!!

2nd day better. got intention to swim 150 lapz. but c c only 129lapz. sis stopped after 100+ not as many as mine. swimming on my own bored me. called mom and went somewhere for lunch. yikes, anthr few thousands of calories consumed, including my yummie McDonald's green apple sundae. sis was trying to force me into eating my Possessed (tatz my nickname for my most most fave, the goodest, the betterest, the bestest Big Apple Donut-Duren Duren!). tis round, innocent-looking bread with durian feelings in it can actually makes me go ecstatic with the 1st bite. de way it tickles my taste buds makes me shudder. ok so now i'm talking like a possessed gal. and thats where the nickname comes from too. mom and sis also started using it. ystdy mom was like "gonna eat ur Possessed today?" uh huh. no. i wanna lose weight ==""

ooohh..... look at the texture. i wanna squeeze it !

Possessed in a seducing voice, "eat me, suyuen babe. i know u want me.."

anyway, i give up dieting and making myself thin. swimming doesnt help. it'll gimme a bodybuilder look. and i cant be suyuen if i starve myself. i live to eat!! tried some clothes at Comma ystdy. the sizes were only meant for: skinny models and anorexic gals. in de end i only managed to get a blouse about my size. is the economy tat bad till cloth is not enaf, or juz gals are getting more skeleton-like nowadays? haiz dunno. jealous betul. i mau kurus...~~

updating anthr bloggie. byeeeeee

SOME EYE CANDIES KAKAZZZ

i know u wanna see tis. XD

SUYUEN FOUND SOMETHING CUTE!!

today went shopping at sunway pyramid. bought my pretty Hush puppies blouse. finally i found the correct size and correct colour, yay!! ok i sounded so childish, summor go "i want, i want!" like 38 gal. salesboy also looked at me and quickly yanked out the hanger for me. *embarrassed*
anyway, it made me happy wat, u dun jealous wor! XD i know u feel like slapping me. i stand here and wait for u to do so. ^^

den proceed to a shoe boutique. not for me lor, i tink i got enaf shoes so far. 1 high heels, 1 gladiator type sandals, 2 pairs for my lectures, 2 for casual wear. cukup la kan. den i entered the shop innocently, no intention to buy 1. mom suddenly, "eh, tis 1 nice!" and threw 1 on the floor. for me. i looked at it. omg...... orgasm! my nafsu membuak-buak like boiling water. it was these super gorgeous white-like-ur-face cream heels. yikeesssss!!!

no i duwan.
yes i want.
no, i say i duwan.
duh, who cares wat u said. i want it.
eheh, u cant influence me. when i say i duwan, i will keep my word.

and i walked out the boutique. with that super gorgeous white-like-ur-face cream heels.

XD i cant help it!!! but i swear i'll have this as the last pair till a few more months. if not, all my shoes will disappear and i'll have ntg to wear. i promise. i promise.....

hunted for my buddy's bday present as well. found smth tat made me faint with awe. smth so cute i cant take my eyes off it. bought 2 of diff types. one for buddy, one for me. even now when typing this out, i was throwing admiring glances at it. ok go ahead and laugh if u want to. but wait till u see it, u'll come back visiting my blog all the time juz to have a look at it. whakakakaaaazzz~~


presenting....


TADAAAA~~!!!!!!

MY CUTE LIL PIGGIE LITTER BIN!!!!

XDXD *blow flying kisses*

u like u like?? *winkz*

the function hor, u open the piggie's head, and it'll reveal a compartment..

see it????? lolz

u can either throw ur unwanted papers in it and make it as a rubbish bin or...

u can put ur stuff in there (my idea)! multi-purpose!!

dun u tink it's juz too adorable to be true?? XD

u make me happy, litter-bin!! kakakaaaa

gave dad his father's day gift juz now. which i bought from mid valley. eii i choose myself 1 leh.... let's see how good my taste is.....

DANG!!! nice rite nice rite??

lol mom and sis were also impressed with it. said it made dad looked so much younger. aww... i never doubt my taste, man!! it kinda made u wish i'll get a gift for u too rite? lolx ok i'm so perasan, i know. thanks so much for the compliment yah! ^^

let's see wat i can get for mom next. i still owe her a bday gift. daaaa....

DILEMMA

there was this particular dialogue which i really like and most probably has some meaning to me. from Nana the movie. After a long time separated and her passion for her singing career, Nana komatsu confessed tis to Ren when they were in the bathtub together.

"ren, we can't continue to be like tis. maybe sometimes we can meet up, make love, chat like wat we're doing now. but my ego wants me to go on with my career. maybe one day, when i'm tired of singing, when i'm old enough, i'll return to our home with u.."

dun feel like elaborating much. but this dilemma of mine is making me so miserable. ir made me think whether meeting that person today was a correct move anot. maybe yes, at least we're clear of the prob we're facing. maybe not, it made me felt like an idiot. it was definitely not wat i wished for a happy hi-long-time-no-see trip. nobody wished for it in fact.

anyways, dunno whether my misery is obvious on my face or wat, many of my frens and some strangers had the ways to make me feel better. it's funny how things work. normally ppl can juz dun bother bout u and u dun give a damn as well. but when u need someone, there're these tiny lil incidents which'll cheer u up heaps. 1st, after i stepped out of the shopping mall, 2 ppl approached me for charity. 2 different ones. even when i tot i might get conned or smth, i still decided to donate. juz to make me feel better by doing charity, if it's reli for real. (hope so!) one of them, which was a woman, even chatted with me a bit. the other 1, a guy, gave me a cheerful bye. when i boarded the train, i met 3 aunties. one of them were grumbling about the terrible crowd and surely things will get stolen. with my earphone blasting music away, i could hear her still. amused though, i grinned at her cute comment. she saw it, and decided to talk to me. repeated the same thing, den her fren looked at me and said "u all also muz sometimes touch ur pockets and take care of ur bags to check whether ur stuff's still there." lol. funny ppl. again i laughed. my friendliness(whakaka) had me talking back to them. i said "yeah reli very dangerous. juz now i was near the entrance also, but too crowded lar, i moved in here". (and met u guys the funny aunties XD) later when one of them was offered a seat by a malay gal, they started to make fun of her.

1st aunty: "wah, she see me very old tatz y call me to sit."
2nd aunty: "haha u very old meh?"
1st aunty: "eh, 60 smth liao lor me. not old ah?"
she caught me smiling at her. and ask me the same q.
her frens all laughed. i looked at her.
me: "hehe,u still look young o." (mygod, i know how to sweet talk 1 ke??)

they got down at the station before mine. so when she got up, she went "lai, xiao mei, sit. sit."
me: "oh it's ok. i'm getting down right after this." *smiled*
"ohhh.... ok la!"

me: bye bye..!"

in the car, when i saw mom and sis, warmly welcomed me back, sis with her new tomato-styled haircut (she said tat, not me kaka), mom talking bout the new restaurant with great spaghetti they had juz now, i felt so damned good. this is where i belong, no matter live or dead. nobody or nothing has the right to be better than this. when i had my msn on, frens find me to chat. a good chat with my bestie thru msg also made me felt alot like myself again. only left to patch things up now. tatz all.

and a quotation from mayzhee: all good guys are taken. yeah she's true.

wow i actually had the mood to blog today!! edwin, happy now? whakaka. no more dusty dusty blog. help me clean next time k whahaha.