CONFESSIONS OF A DISAPPOINTED STUDENT AND A USELESS TEACHER

a happy belated father's day to my dearest daddy. u're growing old with grace, and i still love u like a great daughter does. ^^

and let's pay a tribute to the late Michael Jackson, the legendary king of pop. von dear, dun be sad anymore la k. i'll giv u a big wet kiss tomorrow when we meet. *hugz* lol... (von: =.="")

i'm getting into the life of teaching. things happen yesterday that makes me open my heart to notice and feel stuff that i never get to have before this. i look at things on someone else's point of view, and before i realise it, i'm sharing the responsibility, joy and sadness for the students. i never knew with only juz a few days in this school, i actually have such compassion for them.


in the morning class, my dear students and i were enjoying lessons together. i was so excited about a boy knowing how to cook it sent the front few rows of pupils i'm talking to laughing. gave them some notes to copy which were asked to b pass up b4 school dismissed. then my class ended, the same boy came up to me and asked bout culinary courses and stuff like baking classes. omg can u blif it, he is into french delicacies!!! and he wants to learn those pastry making, bread, chocolate, cakes and watever sweet other foods u can think of. guys, buck up plz. if u wanna make me fall in love with u, dun come telling me "eh i can cook. maggi mee, u want?" only. yummylicious. too bad, he's too young for me. whahaha....anyway, everything went well until i went for next class in form5. the kids were anthr nice bunch, cracking stupid jokes with watever i taught them. it was during recess, then i stayed a lil while again to chat with the boys. that was when i listened to a confession.



"how were ur sivik classes b4 this? i asked.

"sux. we cant und a single thing at all. language command not good. but teacher din seem to bother. so we also totally giv up during her lessons. either pretend to listen or sleep. if we have a teacher like u to communicate with us, we're happy. but other than that, we juz simply waste our time away. as a student b4, i tink u've experienced it, dui ma?"

"wo liao jie.."

anthr student pipped," teacher, how long will u b here b4 leaving for uni?"

"erm.. let's say until around july?"

"wat!!? walao, means we'll have lessons for juz anthr few more weeks den no teachers again."

u see they were devastated. not exactly happy to be abandoned by the school having no teachers for so many months and kept having new faces to teach them and then leave. it's like Touch n' Go. how sad. it made me felt worse when the confessed student said in that disappointed look "it's laidat 1 la. we change teachers till we dun even mind anymore who actually comes in."


these kids, they knew wat they want. and it's not being left having no lessons. they wud prefer someone to teach them even in these minor subjects. there were no happy or excited or we-dun-care looks. only dejected. which made me recalled how we sometimes used to groan and complained hoping we have some free time and not going for lessons, skipping classes coz we dislike the teachers or the lessons. it's not how things were supposed to be.

the whole day passed quite peacefully until the form4 class monitor came to hand in the books.
the english teacher of the class saw it, and she said smth that broke my heart.

"this class is very very terrible. 20 of them failed in my english. i told them, i said, u better come up with a solution on this prob. if there's no solution, i will not teach. i will do my work, u will do ur own work."

and then she continued. "i can see not everybody passed up the books."

wtf!!! hey does it matter to u even if nobody passes up my books?? juz bcoz they failed in a language which is not their strongest, u condemned them, boycotted them, forced them to come out with a solution which i tink supposed to be part of ur damn job as a teacher. u're paid to teach them, not ignore them! omg this donkey of a teacher dared to talk to me laidat. she has totally given up on her pupils. no wonder she was late to class ystdy and i had to tell the monitor to find her. and she was not even in the staffroom. she went gambolling around to photocopy smth. supposedly u tink she has smth urgent to do and no time to enter the class. eh come on la, it's ur lesson time. u mean to ignore them juz bcoz they failed ur paper and go on doing ur stuff???? no wonder they have no respect for u! u're obviously delaying all ur work for the last minute and den finding excuses not to enter the class. wtf if u're so not willing, stop torturing the pupils and hand in ur resignation letter!! the students deserved someone better to be their teacher. call urself a master graduate. it's worth ntg if u cannot deliver ur knowledge to the students. fucking lazy. like as if the students love to fail. like as if they're born to fail english tests. i hope ur son or daughter fails in all his or her papers, especially english. den i wud love to see how u can come up with a solution and probably have enaf neurons in ur brain to apply it to the students.

omg, i cant blif i rant over ppl like her.

and the school. plz for heaven's sake. u leave them at those arts classes having no teachers for so many months. 4 fucking months, to be specific! i was telling mom ystdy that my hope is tat the school will be able to find a substitute teacher asap to replace me. plz dun ever neglect them laidat anymore, it's heartbreaking.

my best wishes for the kids i love alot.