HAVE YOU EVER BEEN....?

tis might be one of the most emotional posts in this blog.. feeling so down now. the tears juz wouldnt come down, leaving me to feel even worse. is that y ppl said once u're feeling too miserable, u couldnt afford to cry at all? perhaps itz true....

sitting comfortably at my room, blogging tis (finally i found the connection)

have u ever been feeling so close to someone

to have wonderful thoughts that u share so many similarities with them

leads to pure admiration, and that u're thankful

u get to know tis person in ur life, and they're there in ur heart?

but...

when they utter wordz that hurt

to the deepest of ur feelingz

it was merely juz their wayz to have fun

but imagine

if u receive it from someone

who u care and admire alot

it brought pain in ur heart

and yet, at the moment

when u felt like

running away and juz wanna cry out

u're forced to remain where u are

putting up a poker face

laughing along with them

and taking it as lightly as others

it tortures u more

de misery u felt

u juz wanna be somewhere, unheard and unseen

to relieve the knot in ur heart

thatz exactly how i felt now..

no one here will und me..

it was den added

when u have someone close to you

and yet somehow they're better than u,

they're liked by others, u're unnoticed beside them

u're shielded

itz not appropriate to compare

u are who u are

love yourself, love being who i am

but sometimes, the dilemma struck u

i wish i'm not alwayz landed in this situation

it pains me

get a grip, and be strong

nothing's more important than

to treasure what u have in life

life is short, there's alwayz wayz

to improve on urself

but staying happy

is what i need in being me

i juz hope

there's enough in me

for u to be proud of me

to ensure that ur decision is right

i shud not take too seriously with wat u have said

i respect u alot